Not here

I’m not in these pages

It’s a relief actually

No search can reveal where I’m hidden

No quest can lead to me

I’m not in your world

For there is no place for me

In your dailyness and checklists

I no longer need to be

I’m not in your memories

Oh, how I feel free!

Not trapped in your ideas

Or in your desires of me

I’m not, I’m not, no more now

I only belong to me

Again

Again and again. 

In the streets that have no name

we walk past the bougainvilleas.

The conversations in our eyes, the same that led us here

to this year, to now.

Our hands in a warm embrace like that very first day

when the silent stars saw me whisper your name.

The silence breathes of that familiar restlessness

that would perhaps lead to a kiss,

 just like this.

And under that same ancient sky

together, you and I

fall in love.

Again and again and again.

shards of stars

rain

in my dreams

when you

touch

the dewdrop

on my cheeks

I soar, now, i fly

shards of stars

pierce

my dreams

when I

watch

the dew drop

on your cheek

I sink, now, i die

Naught

I'll be tearing those pages today, the poems,

I'd like to tear all the words too

shred each one carefully, until

all the letters, are divided

formless, wordless, less,

till no memory

exists in them

no evidence 

of emotion 

or motion

till, stilled

they are

and they

no more

are.

In Between

Awash with darkness,

in this room

where raindrops array on windows

like musical notes

and outside the rain breaks into song,

time lulls between us

and silences words

while you in your Sartre

and I in Borges immerse

till the moments lose

themselves in shadows

and leave footprints in us

In your fist, snared,

my life

choked

till the end of breath

but

trapped, though it were,

my love escaped.

The pin pricks

of lost days

smuggled themselves

into this moment.

In the blink of an eye

scars reappeared

as the soul lay beneath the rocks.

Trampled. Writhing. Trapped.

And then forever

Still. Still. Death.

Defined

That was then.

The secret rendezvous in the diffused moonlight

the long silence of sighs and stolen glances,

the play of silhouettes on the whitewashed walls,

and your breath whispering to me.

And now.

As our life arranges itself like a Courbet painting,

no more the sighs or glimpses or shadow play

setting our romance free

For no more do I need an alibi, love
'cause you already breathe in me.

Tea-cup full

SitLets’ talk banter—fatuous, vacuousthis will mean more to metomorrow,later, in a memoryDon’tLet’s not philosophizethis cup of tea doesn’t demand it,nor do I.Only fill it with silence.EnoughSense is creeping in,we have moved to another moment;no more this.Until another hello.

Only with stardust and rainbows

In myth-making times

With dreams on wet eyelashes

And broken-hearted rhymes

Free-flowing words

That empty this soul

Disjointed moments

That leave a yearning hole

But none of that, my dear

For I carry you along

In bookmarked memories

And a fraction of a song

A You

I dressed myself

And smiled a smile

I got myself a heart

Though for a little while

I stood in pride

And drank my tears

I learnt new songs

To please your ears

I let me dream

And stabbed my bleeding senses

I gave my spirit away

For you didn’t like its face

You were never untrue

Even with your casual lies

You showed your true self

For you felt no reason to hide

You were everything and more to me

If only I had drawn you differently